Every once in a while, I think of closing shop and quitting this whole blogging thing. For one thing, it takes time to maintain. Secondly, I feel like no one really reads it, so I feel like “why bother?” Then I realize the reason why I do this… and it’s because I want to write. Yes I care about getting comments just to see who’s out there, but I care more about the fact that I get to write. It’s the only thing that allows me to exercise my writing skills –or lack thereof. This blog is pretty much my journal, though I’m far from pouring my heart out. It’s still censored, and most of the time, I really don’t get to write what I actually feel. But I still get to write, which is a start, right?
While I’ve been on leave, I’ve been trying to get writing gigs out there and trying to get paid for it. I’m still doing reviews for some online mags like Sentimentalist, but I’m trying to supplement my income with it. Problem is, I don’t have a lot of time especially with the two kids. I also don’t have a lot of samples to send out, but we’ll see. I’m also trying to work out a “writing schedule” where I force myself to sit down for at least 2 hours and work on my novel. Unfortunately, I can’t work that out until I start working and see how it goes from there. But hey, J.K. Rowling did it, and so can I! I may not come out with the next HP, but I want to at least end up with a manuscript! One of these days, I’ll write about ‘why I want to publish’ a book and I think you’ll see why I’m so obsessed with it. In a nutshell, it’s because I love to read so much. So when I was young, I vowed to publish a book just like the ones I love. Corny, but it’s true.
While I’ve been on break, things have certainly been happening. The big thing is that my kids are really growing up!
- Rockstar baby and Li’l C are 2 and half years old, and 6 months old (respectively)! So they are both half-way to being 3 and 1! Crazy how times flies…
Rockstar baby and Lil C
- I appreciate staying home with the kids because you can really focus on their well-being. You also get to know them more, especially their personalities!
- Rockstar baby is very verbal and communicative. You can pretty much carry on a conversation with him, so he’s been my pal while I’m on break. When his little sister cries a lot, you can definitely hear him say “Enough!” or “Silence!” to her. LOL. And just this morning, he woke up saying, “I don’t have energy, momma.” Crazy kid. He loves playing his guitar still and loves The Wiggles.
- Li’l C has been very high-maintenance and testing my patience. At about 5 months or so, she stopped sleeping through the night and wakes up once-to-three times during the night! She also never naps longer than 1 hour so it’s hard to manage her. She wants your constant attention. No one can make her laugh like her big bro, though!
- She started school this week in preparation for when I go back to work and so far, she’s doing fine. I finally got her to drink formula just a month ago, and so she’s starting to get off the boob. She’s very mobile and can practically crawl. She can also sit up and maintain it for a few minutes sans help. She’s also a very good eater. I just hope she starts sleeping soundly soon!
Lil C at 6 months old
I go back to work next week, and I’m half looking forward to it, and half not! I’m definitely going to miss being with the kids, but I’m not going to miss the monotony of being a stay-at-home mom. (Of course once I go back to work, I’m sure I’ll whine about wanting to be home). I did enjoy my time off though. I get to go to the library 2x a week, read a book a day, watch tons of TV (once the kids are asleep), and bum around with the kids. I probably read about 4 novels a week (the library rocks!), and discovered some seriously good TV. Folks, please watch Z Rock and Skins –you won’t regret it!
Oh so much to do, so little time. More later! (and I do apologize for this lackluster post; I swear I’ll start writing better next time).
