Archive for March, 2010


project 365 – day 46: my daily stress fest

30 March 2010

Working moms are just waaay too frazzled (in a different way that stay-at-home moms are frazzled).

Before getting to work, there is chaos.  Mad rush to get ready, get the kids ready, argue with the kids, haul them to school, etc.  There is so much yelling going on.

At work, I actually find some peace.  I consider work my me time.  But yes, I am also stressed at work.  There are so many files to work on, so little time.  Then I also bring work home or work on the weekends on occassion.

After work, there is again, chaos.  Pick up kids from school.  6 pm – dinner time battles.  I cook.  Last night, I actually made a delicious flounder francese.  Lil C ate a whole fish fillet; Rockstar boy did not and had pizza instead.  Mad rush to finish.   7:30 pm – Bath time.  Bargaining time.  Story time.  And finally, sleeping time.  The kids are actually asleep by 8:45 pm –which is late for me, but that’s the best I can do.  I then relax.  I leave dishes unwashed most of the time.  But I clean up the living room, dining room, etc.  It sucks. 

I watch a large amount of TV to unwind.

I have not gone to the gym in 2 weeks.

Now add to this is the fact that we are picking a contractor to renovate our home; we meet with people during the week and weekends; we are also going to start to pack up and move out. 

Now add to this is the fact that I am about to start a band again.  I know, what am I thinking?!  Where would I find the time? 

My first meeting with potential bandmates will be this Saturday.  We’ll see!


project 365 – day 45: it’s friday, i’m in love!

26 March 2010

It’s Friday! 


I feel rich, bitches!! But only for like a couple of hours until I start doling out bill payments…  hee-hee.

But who cares?! It’s Friday!

Good things are happening!

1) I found a possible new bandmate!  I’ve been sort of trying to start one (it’s a slow start) and posted an ad on Craig’s.  Check it out here.  I think it’s hilarious!

2) Did I mention it’s payday?!

3) One of my cases has had a brand-new development!  Awesome!

4) I got my new Heartbeats headphones.  They rock!

5) Can’t wait to relax tonight and watch Ponyo with the kids.

Have an amazing weekend folks!


project 365 – day 44: last dance

25 March 2010

Here’s a poem by Emily Dickinson that I’ve always liked…


Because I could not stop for Death,
He kindly stopped for me;
The carriage held but just ourselves
And Immortality.

We slowly drove, he knew no haste,
And I had put away
My labor, and my leisure too,
For his civility.

We passed the school, where children strove
At recess, in the ring;
We passed the fields of gazing grain,
We passed the setting sun.

Or rather, he passed us;
The dews grew quivering and chill,
For only gossamer my gown,
My tippet only tulle.

We paused before a house that seemed
A swelling of the ground;
The roof was scarcely visible,
The cornice but a mound.

Since then ’tis centuries, and yet each
Feels shorter than the day
I first surmised the horses’ heads
Were toward eternity.

I haven’t posted in a while.  It’s on purpose.

Sometimes, you have to stop and smell the roses.  Not write about about them.

You never know when it’s your time to go. When it’s your last dance.


project 365 – day 43: tmi

18 March 2010

So I went to see a new doctor the other day.  He was a gastroenterologist (read: digestive issues, colon care, etc…so you know where we are going with this).  I haven’t been to this practice for about 7 years.

The nurse had me put on a gown and everything and wait for the doc.  Imagine my surprise when a nice, young, good-looking guy walks in and introduces himself as my doctor.  It was pretty embarassing to have to discuss with him my personal, private ailments.  Why couldn’t he be an old dude?  Doctor-patient confidentiality aside, I feel like he’s someone I can actually run into one day and he’s going to know my issues!  Hell, if I knew him better, he would be the type of person I would set up with someone else.



project 365 – day 42: the aftermath

16 March 2010

I haven’t been posting (if you even notice).  The tri-state area was hit with a pretty big storm this past weekend.  My area (Bergen County, NJ) was hit pretty bad.  Trees were uprooted causing electrical outages and consequently, water supply outages (is that a word?).  I know several people who didn’t have power, no water (that would be me), or even both!

My neighbor’s house has a huge-ass tree resting on their roof.  Thank goodness it didn’t smash into their house!

Our water came back on yesterday.  Not having water when you have 2 small children is not very convenient.  I’m glad we didn’t have to go without for that long.  Had I known though, I would’ve collected some rain water (after all, we got tons of that!)

So now, it’s back to the daily grind for me.

Unfortunately for others, things won’t go back to normal for a while.


project 365 – day 41: i love you

10 March 2010

Other than to my kids, I’m just not an “I love you” person.

I notice lots of other people who say “I love you” to their family, friends, etc after a phone call, or as they’re hugging them goodbye.

I don’t do that.  I can write it via text messages, emails, cards, and letters. 

I just can’t say it verbally to another person without feeling I’m forcing it out of myself.

There’s tons of people I would like to say “I love you” on a daily basis.  My mother, my mother-in-law (who’s not doing so well), the hubs, my dad, my brothers, my friends.

I say it to my kids all the time, so I should be able to say it to others, right?

It’s just three little words after all.

Three words that mean a lot.


project 365 – day 40: good housekeeping

9 March 2010

I am running out of things to talk about.

And the things I do want to talk about require a lot more time and thought before I get to publish it.

So many things to do, so little time.

Oh here’s a blurb…I think I am getting a yaya for the kids once Rockstar Boy is in kindergarten.  So when we go to the Philippines this December, I will be interviewing a few ladies to get ready for next year.  Interesting, eh?

My plan is to put Lil C in the cheap ($800/month!!)  Catholic nun-run school near my work once Rockstar Boy enters public school.   Then I’ll have the lady do housekeeping/childcare so she can pick up Rockstar Boy from kindergarten and do light housekeeping/cook dinner/do laundry for the family. 

I know nannies should just do childcare, so I guess what I’m trying to get is a housekeeper –not a yaya, necessarily.  But we’ll see….maybe this is just wishful thinking. 

I seem to be doing a lot of that.